Ragtime
You don’t expect to go when you are small. What can you do
when you’re small?
I was the brain. My two brothers were the brawn. They went,
and I wasn’t surprised. I didn’t think I would go.
I thought I would get
special treatment, being smart. I thought I was gonna be the “go to” guy. I was
wrong.
I was like everyone else.
I could run. I could jump. I could crawl. So they took me.
They taught us how to shoot. How to get shot. How to die. How
to not die. All important stuff.
Back then they only had two real requirements. Are you
healthy? Yes. Can you lift more than fifty pounds above your head. Yes.
Go.
Go.
I couldn’t lift that much above my head. I barely got it to
my chest. They said that was good enough and pushed me through.
Shots. Shots. Shots. Not liquor. Needles.
When we got there I ran. Like everybody else. I ran. I ran,
I jumped, I crawled. I also ducked. I ducked a lot.
Everybody liked music then. Not that people don’t like it
now, but we really liked music. We
would match it to our heart’s to slow the world down. When we weren’t listening
we felt it anyway. A guy would leave and walk like slow jazz, he would come
running back to ragtime.
I remember the first one. They all laughed when I could fit.
It wasn’t comfortable, but it wasn’t running. At first I thought it was
freedom.
Tunnels aren’t freedom.
Firing a gun in there was like putting a cherry bomb in your
ear. It hurt. Almost as much as it did the other guy. Almost.
I learned to swim in earth. They called me fish. I called
them bastards.
Tunnels weren’t freedom, but they gave me leave.
I went down, with ten guys waiting for me to return. I came
back and they were none. Blind. Deaf. Dumb. And cold. They were none.
I pulled out a radio and called support. I heard ragtime in
the background.
After a while. It’s all ragtime.
This is really good John... I feels authentic, like you understand military life from experiencing it yourself.
ReplyDeleteIt's a combination of empathy and a good imagination haha. That and I can feel this piece. It is not something I read and feel happy about. It makes you feel cold. Brrrrrr.
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