I once read...

I once read, from a small comic a friend gave to me I believe, that a writer will write regardless of the circumstances. It doesn't matter if you are a coal miner who must give up his precious few hours of desperately needed sleep, you will write if you are a writer. I found that disconcerting. I do not feel that way. I can go for days without writing, and most of my stories are content to sit in my head for quite some time before they come out.

Well, this is me saying I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!!!

I started this blog to showcase my writing, and I find that I am still not doing enough writing for my liking. I have weird hangups about damn near everything in my life, and writing is one of them, but damn it all I am done! I am going to write. At this moment I am mentally angling myself towards my play, and am getting an uneasy feeling about it. I recently decided to finish it, so in this vein I went back and reread what I have already written. I think its good. Too good. To the point where I can not believe that I wrote it. I feel that way about everything I write that isn't total trash. If it isn't trash somebody else must have wrote it because my thoughts can't be that coherent or that interesting.

I probably sound like I am some self serving pretentious mad man that just rambles on and on, or I might sound perfectly normal and be incredibly self deprecating and overly critical. I HAVE NO IDEA!

I just need to move. Step by step. Word by word. I know this. I know nothing is first perfect, and that if we are lucky it will be last excellent, but never first perfect.

I do apologize for my musings here, but hey, it is my blog I will write what I want on it.

If anyone is curious as to why there is a picture of Starry Night on this post it is because I like it. Van Gogh is one of my favorite artists, and probably the only one that I would name if asked that kind of question. My brain can wander freely like it is listening to a piece of classical music when I am looking a Van Gogh.

Grrr argh. Ramble. Sputter. Chaos. Destruction.

Yeah, all that business.

Coherent writing will begin again tomorrow. One way or another.

Good Night.

I Hate asking for Help

I am an idiot. I have sat here feeling super embarrassed about putting together a "GoFundMe" site since I did it about fifteen minutes ago. I am sure my face has gone from pale, to yellow, to red about a hundred times in the last few minutes, and I just realized that there is no point in it.

GoFundMe is an online fundraising program that helps people gather money for various things, school costs, travel expenses, business ideas, sports teams (I am assuming for kids) and various other things. It works by setting up a site and then contacting basically everyone you know. It does this in broad sweeps through Facebook, Twitter, and email.

After I set it up and sent it out I realized that I had basically asked everyone I knew for money. I felt like a beggar before I started and wanted to be sick. But then I thought about it. I have never not helped someone who I could. I have given money to complete strangers, shared food with homeless people, held doors, volunteered and helped organize charity drives, and been a generally good person my entire life. For my friends I will go WELL out of my way, but they are my friends. I know that they have my back as much as I have theirs. I will still go out of my way for people I hardly know, not to the point of foolishness, well maybe sometimes, but still! I am willing to give everyone a fair chance.

No one is perfect, and if I understand that people need help sometimes, then I should understand that I also need help sometimes.

I still feel a little weird about this whole GoFundMe thing, but not sick and embarrassed like I was before.

Check it out at GoFundMe.Com and check out my page too if you want to read my story and help out. I am not going to repost it here, I am still not that comfortable with it haha.

D&D Blog

I will shortly, which may be tomorrow or a month from now, be starting a Dungeons and Dragons blog. I have been running a campaign for over a year now and have been told by the players that I needed to write it all down. It is quite the crazy tale. So! I will be attempting to serialize the tale via blog posts. Character sheets will be posted with character details as they appear and group drawings and maps will be posted as well as they are created. This will probably mean more to my friends then this blog haha. We shall see. Thoughts welcome.

Realizing my purpose

Tomorrow:

Tomorrow I will make that phone call that I am dreading to make. I have made it several times and have had no answer. I will try again.

Tomorrow I start looking for other work. What I need next is some economy to work with and I have none.

Tomorrow I am going to write. I am going to take my research, my play, and my laptop, and leave the house, and write somewhere. Probably PCJ or The Library.

Tomorrow will eventually be today, and when it is I will not say "Tomorrow I will" again.

There is no point in waiting on yourself. You just have to Be Bold, and take the next step. Life is looking for victims, and I won't be one.

Who in fiction are you?

 

I participate in personality tests on occasion, and I find the ones that offer who I am as a writer, or fictional character, to be the most entertaining. The one I am going to post is sponsored by the Scottish Book Trust for Book Week Scotland 2013. It offers an interesting list of results, amongst which I have seen Dumbledore, and Attitcus Finch thus far. I got the latter. I was okay with that. Enjoy! And don't forget to post your results in the comments section!

Test: Who in fiction are you?

The creation of the pages!

NOTE TO ALL AUTHORS AND ADMINS

So, this is my nearest approximation to creating separate pages that can be updated. Things will always be posted to the "Home" page, but if one of the following labels is attached to the post it will also appear in that category.

John's Writing, Pictures, Reviews, Thoughts, Writing Prompts

I can add or change these as needed and if anyone has any specific page / page names they want let me know. Labels need to be written in under the Labels section on the right hand side of the posting screen. I am sure everyone can figure that out, but better safe than stupid questions. So! On we go!